Being a Mystic

"In the days ahead, you will either be a mystic (one who has experienced God for real) or nothing at all."
--Karl Rahner
As usual reading a Brennan Manning book-The Furious Longing of God- allures my spirit towards desiring to experience God. I think previously in my life an intellectual fascination with the historical Jesus, or even a deep appreciation for the wisdom found in the ancient prophets or the life of Christ was enough to bind my hear to the Christian faith. Now in my thirties I find myself wearied with "correct" theological explanations and critical of the implied evangelical assumptions of my childhood that wisdom and truth can only be found in Christian scriptures. I can, of course, unhesitatingly present the solid intellectual foundation for God's existence and Jesus being divine, but true things, even when incredibly significant and meaningful, are not enough to bind the soul or enamor the heart. I must continue to experience the love of God, not as in the vagueness of a warm reassuring emotion, but in the personal, soul-transforming embrace of Christ. If Christianity is to be truth that matters, I must experience its God.