Fearing Solitude

Reading Henry Nouwen's book Beloved: Henri Nouwen in Conversation was more than a comforting call to pursue the contemplative life, but was to me rather a reminder of why I avoid solitude" it requires faith. In his language:
"it's an enormous act of faith to believe that if you start listening, you will hear something; or that if you enter into solitude, you will find intimacy; or that when you are silent you are not going to be dead silent" [41]

This book challenged and inspired me to see the solitude built into my lifestyle as a gift, and yet if I am honest I fear that seeking God will drive me away from belief if my soul hears an echo where I most hope to find the Savior.